I don’t want to be happy

I don’t want to be happy 

I don’t want to sing

The gloom is my friend

The sadness my queen

The anger my master

The pity my priest

The nightmare my banquet

The struggle my feast

I don’t want to laugh

I don’t want to play

I want to get drunk and write poems all day

I cannot be kind and I won’t be polite

I don’t want to be loved, I just want to fight